Wednesday, September 23, 2009


Today I have binged. This is what I did:

Lunch: Ham sandwich on Double Fiber Bread with Tomato, Basil, Lettuce

I was full I think..but then crazy binge woman came out. I then ate
3 pieces of celery with peanut butter (I scoop the peanut butter with the celery)
2 bananas
6 chips a hoy cookies.
2 small pretzel rods

While this does not compare to my former binges (bags of potato chips, packages of raw hot dogs, cartons of ice cream, boxes of little debbie snacks), it is a version of it.

I'm a little sad about it. I have not been drinking enough water and i'm wondering if that had something to do with it. I mentioned before that salt can be a trigger. I wonder since I haven't been drinking whether the salt in the lunch meat triggered me. I don't know. I do know that I was NOT hungry.

I went to bible study this morning and here was an interesting thought from the lecture:
In the book of John, Jesus healed a man who had been lame for 38 years. The teacher gave this application. It is never too late for a new chance in life. It doesn't matter how long you've been damaged or hurt, there's always hope for change. The man had been healed after 38 years. His life was renewed. Ours can be too.


  1. Hi Jodie,

    Thanks for your honesty. You know I relate to the binge struggle and the crazy binge woman within. I also struggled last night, and I know it's because I didn't eat enough yesterday. I was grooving on that true hungry feeling. :( It's over and today is a new day.

    Thanks for sharing the thought from the Bible study. It's so true. We are new creatures if we get out of the way. As long as we're alive we can change and continue healing.

  2. We can't change the patterns of a lifetime overnight. I was 400-plus when I started so this is a LONG road. I have noticed that when I let myself get impatient with the process and start (inwardly) putting a lot of pressure on myself, THAT'S when the urges to eat are strongest. We have to learn to relax, do our best, and we get there when we get there.