Sunday, August 10, 2014

Yep, it's Me Again....


That about sums up the last almost year since I posted.  One big old sigh.  It has now been almost a year and a half since my dad passed away.  Most days I feel okay with it.  I don't constantly think about him and his last horrible moments on this earth.  Some days I miss him so much it hurts.

I went through some serious depression, so much that I went into a psychiatrist.  She believes that the massive and complicated grief after just giving birth may have even altered some of my brain chemistry (or something to that effect) which made it impossible for me to get out of the funk I was in.

Yes, I am medicated now, and it has made a WORLD of difference.  I don't think I even realized how bad off I was until I went on the medication and actually didn't mind getting out of bed in the morning.

So what has happened in the last year?  Not a heck of a lot.  My twins turned 9.  Charlotte is now 18 months and entering the testing limits toddler phase.  She gives me a run for my money, that's sure.

We took a family trip to Disney World last October for our 10 year wedding anniversary.  It was fantastic and we had such a wonderful time, I literally cried the day we had to come home.  I am currently planning a solo trip to WDW in January of 2015.

I took over leadership of the bookclub I was in AND started a second club since our first one got too big!

I STILL have plantar fasciitis in both feet, which is horrible and evil and makes me hate any type of exercise. 

We left our church.  This is worth mentioning because it exacerbated my grief and depression.  It turns out that the church wasn't too good at ministering to their own.  I wonder what good is it to spend all your energy into trying to spread the good news of Jesus, when you completely ignore your hurting brothers and sisters in Christ. 

Yep, I've gained all that hard lost weight back.  It is life.  I am distracted.  I need comfort. 

Life goes on...I do like to blog.  I should do more of it...

Yep, it's me again...