Saturday, July 4, 2015

It was a nice thought at least...

Yesterday, I said that I used the lightest weights and held back a little so I wouldn't be sore today.  Yeah, that didn't work.    My legs are so sore from squats and my chest is sore from chest presses.  Egads...  well it's muscles tearing to rebuild themselves...  I know the drill.

I'm feeling a little emotional today for unknown reasons.  I'm tired I think.  I dreamt of my dad the other night and it usually sets me on edge when I dream of him.  I am one person who does not like to dream of my deceased loved ones.  It is just too painful, even if it is a good dream.

Friday, July 3, 2015

It's Just Like Riding a Bicycle...except it hurts much more

So I decided to rejoin the fitness center.  It was only a $25.00 rejoin free, so I figured better get it now before the fee goes up.

I worked out this morning - doing BodyPump weight lifting class.   I was smart and put the lowest weight on so I wouldn't be so sore tomorrow.  It's amazing how easy I just went right back into the routine.  Like I hadn't missed a day.

I had to skip one track because my heart rate wasn't coming down enough, and now my back is so sore!!  Hopefully tomorrow I will be able to move.  I haven't worked out since September of last year when I broke my ankle.  I'll get back to fit, but like everything it takes time.

Moving forward...

Wednesday, July 1, 2015

Goals and such.

My initial goals are the same as my goals the first go around.  The first is to be smaller than a baby elephant.  Then it will be tricky to figure out the next goal since before it was to weigh the lowest weight I had recorded in WW years ago, then lower than I had in high school.   I suppose I could keep those goals and then put the next goal as the lowest weight I was the last time...

So I think my goals should be:

Goal#1 - to be 250 lbs
Goal #2 - to be 229 lbs (lowest WW weight achieved in 2000)
Goal #3 - to be 213 lbs (lowest weight recorded in high school)
Goal #4 - to be 199 lbs (under 200)
Goal #5 - to be 190.5 lbs (lowest weight I achieved last round of losing)
Goal #6 - to be 180 lbs (Where I go from obese to overweight)

That's all the goals I'm going to do for now since it won't benefit me to do a goal until I get to 175.  I don't know what my body will look like and what I will need to lose.

I'm trying to figure out getting back to the fitness center.  Part of me wants to wait to join until I reach my Goal #1 since I will be a little bit more fit and easy to move.  But the other part of me misses the workouts and the camaraderie.  I was this weight and more when I first joined.  It's tough with 3 kids, a husband and a full time job to figure out where to fit it in.  Of course I could be there rather than typing this blog, but once I get home, I hate going out again!!   I do have tools here to work out.  I should use them!

But it's July 1st.  Best time of the month for making Goals.  Maybe 2x a week at home to start...we shall see.  I'll work on this.

Monday, June 29, 2015

Friends and Fighting

I'm proud of myself.  I got into a pretty major disagreement with a friend about the recent SCOTUS ruling on gay marriage.  It was a very short disagreement but a forceful one.  I told my friend I was very happy for the ruling because I didn't think it was right that gay couples didn't get the same privileges that heterosexual couples do.  My cousin is a lesbian and I am very happy that she can now be married and have that marriage recognized in all 50 states.

Also, my job at the adoption company is to help mostly the LGBT community navigate their way through the adoption process.   There is such joy when I talk to my clients about this ruling.  You see, there isn't only discrimination through marriage, but also through adoption.  In many states only one of a couple can adopt and if they are lucky the partner could adopt 6 months later.   Imagine for 6 months or longer NOT having legal rights to your child! 

Anyhow, my friend was rather upset that I thought it was good.  I said that it isn't right to be treated that way when they have no choice.  She yelled back at me "You aren't born gay!"  and the only "proof" she had was that if it was okay, the bible would not speak against it.  It made me mad.  I am a woman of faith, but I can't stand when people stay ignorant because "the bible says".   The bible says that slavery is okay.  The bible says if you have sex during your menstrual period you should be cut off from your people and you are unclean,  The bible says a lot of things that have been written off as cultural times.  But not homosexuality.  Noone bothers to get to know gay people, to read the studies, to understand.  It's just different than what they know.

I'm not opposed to people believing one way.  But you need more proof to back up what you believe.

Anyhow..back to why I was proud.  Even in this stressful time, I did not binge.  I did not want to give in to the stress.  And honestly, if I lost this friend over it, I wouldn't be too sad.  I'm a thinker and I love debate, but bring some education about what you are debating. 

I had a doctors appointment today.  I look forward to getting my labs back.  I don't like giving blood, but I do like finding out the results and comparing them from before.  I hadn't been to the doctor for over 2 years because in my depression I just felt so embarrassed going back and having gained so much weight.   It was fine though. 

Saturday, June 27, 2015

What I've been doing...

This is what I've been doing for the past 2 1/2 years, besides gaining weight!  She's a beautiful, blond mini-me.  She is just like her momma in so many ways. 

I have friends in town this weekend that kind of stress me out a bit, but I've been handling things pretty well.  No major binges or anything.  We had chinese for dinner which is not the healthiest, but I think I did all right with it.

I'm very happy about the SCOTUS ruling this week.  I don't think people should be denied rights to marry who they love.  I work at an adoption company that primary works with the LGBT community and I tell you, those folks are beyond happy to be allowed to legally complete their family!

All in all, things are well.

Thursday, June 25, 2015

I forgot about the Agony...

The agony of not seeing the scale move for days even though you are doing everything right!

Before I started down this path again, I invested in a doctors scale.  I was so tired of stepping on a digital scale and having it read 6 different weights in the span of 1 minute.  I love my scale.  Even when it doesn't move.

The reality is I've had a cold and I got my period which are the two things that mostly make me retain water.   So I shouldn't be so annoyed at the scale, yet there it is! 

Week 1 -  I lost 7 lbs
Week 2 - I lost 2 lbs
Week 3 - I lost 4.5 lbs
Week 4 - I lost 1 lb

So in 4 weeks I have lost 14.5 lbs, which is nothing to sneeze at.   I know now it starts to go slower, but I've been down this road before.  I just have to revist my blog from 2011 when I started to be real serious about my health. 

I've had 30 days without Diet Coke, which I am telling you is essential to this process.  The first thing I did before I came undone was have a Diet Coke, and then another.  Without Diet Coke, I have no cravings for sweet things.  I'd rather have a fruit or a vegetable than a cookie.  Truth. 

Here's to the next 4 weeks!

Wednesday, June 24, 2015

The Road is Long with Many a Winding Turn...

I can't believe I've been blogging on and off for the last 6 years!  My twins were 4 when I started blogging and they are now 10.  I now have a 2 1/2 year old beautiful and precocious toddler.  I gained all those glorious 100 lbs I lost back after I gave birth and lost my father to liver cancer at the age of 66.  It's a long road.

I have had 28 pretty darn great days.  No diet coke...only a couple of cases of small binging.  I'm down 14.4 lbs in almost a month, which is pretty consistent with what I lost the first time around.  This is the first time in nearly 3 years that I have had a pretty clean month.

I'm working full time so I haven't quite figured out how to work the fitness center back into my life, but for me it was more the food that was the problem. 

My readers have probably long forgotten about me but I still want to move forward on this blog.  I'm going back to being less than a baby elephant again.  But I did it once, so I know it can be done!

If you are still reading me, leave me a comment!  I'm planning to get caught up with reading blogs soon!