Thursday, January 28, 2010


I'm an admirer. I admire looks and personality and ability and character and determination. I'm an admirer or all things good. Sometimes I get into a thought pattern which may not be that good about it though. I often hope some day someone will admire me in the ways I admire other people. It's not a pedestal thing. It's a true, honest, I wish I could be more like that thing. It's not claiming that someone is all around better, but that someone is better in that one thing that I admire. I like to tell people that I admire them too. The only time I ever felt admired was when we adopted our children and to be honest, I was rather annoyed by this admiration. I think mostly because loving is not a hard thing for me. It was not hard to love my children, to do what was best for them. After all, I didn't have that growing up. Maybe there was a bitter part in me because of that that wouldn't allow for any admiration. I was always closer to other people than my own family so it wasn't hard to love a non biological child. I think it always bothered me because these were always people I felt didn't love me enough. I don't know..right now I'm therapy typing...I digress.

But I want to be admired. I want to be a person that gets called for advice about something/anything. I want to be someone that others talk about it a great way. Is this totally self centric? Perhaps - well, yes. But I know how it is to be the one admiring. I guess I'd like to be the one admired someday. I admire my readers too for different things. Some of you have been with me from the beginning (August) and through your stories I have come to admire you. I might embarrass some of you, but I'm going to anyway, because I believe in encouraging people and letting them know what you think of them.

Leslie - I admire your commitment to sobriety and your children. Your love for them truly shows and for 18 years you have chosen to live in the present with them. It's amazing.

Patsy - I admire your dedication to squats. Seriously. AND more importantly your cheery disposition. I don't think I've ready many "Woe is me" posts from you.

Chris - I admire your "kick aS$" attitude. I wish I were a little more hard core like you! WHen I think of you, I think "ROCK ON!"

Sarah - I admire your faithfulness to your family and to church even when you have your own sickness.

Steph - I admire your eternal optimism and ability to not be jaded by all of us "sinful" people. (and your ability to play Barbies)

Kev - I admire your ability to put up with the emotional mess that I am. I might not be able to do the same if our roles were reversed. I love you.

There is always something to admire about people. Sometimes you have to look close, but it's there.


  1. Hi Jodie,

    What a lovely post. Thank you for your kind words about me - I feel ridiculously blessed to be sober and present in my life, and maybe it shows since you've noticed!

    I do admire you, and I'm not saying that because you brought this up. (Well, I am - but my admiring was there before; I just didn't have the generosity to share it like you.) I like your brightness of spirit and unique way of looking at things. You also are a dedicated loving parent who isn't afraid to honestly say that sometimes you doubt yourself in that arena. Many folks aren't comfortable being that honest.

    Yours is always one of the first blogs I go to when I log on, and that will continue. Thanks again! You rock!

  2. I admire your honesty and willingness to share so much of yourself with so many people that you don't know.

    I am guarded and find it difficult to share with anyone except those closest to me. So, I admire your openness.

    Like you, I am an adoptive Mom to two totally amazing kids. Every time someone tells me they admire what we've done I get a little bit frustrated because it sounds like we've sacrificed something and we haven't. We've sacrificed nothing but been blessed with everything.

  3. Thanks,
    I like that you dedicate yourself to your kids.
    I think it's awesome.
    Being a good parent is the toughest job there is.
    I admire your kick *ss attitude in that area.
    rock on jodie.

  4. you guys are great. Thank you for the encouragement.

  5. Aww... Thank you! I'm sorry my recent posts have been pretty 'down in the dumps' but I'm sure that's been due to worry about Craig and now that we've found out he's fine, I'm back to my old self!

    I admire your ability to post exactly what you think! :o)