So, today I went to a Body Pump Class instead of church. Here are some truths:
I felt better after my workout then I have at church in a long time
People, even though they are working hard, are friendly and cheery - not always so at church
Noone cares what you look like, what work out clothes you are wearing, or how your hair is. It is a welcome relief to wearing my Sunday Best.
Don't get me wrong. We love God and we believe in going to church to worship. We believe in Jesus and the Bible. I am just burned out on actual church lately. And it seems almost every person has the stories of "crazy" people at their own church. People who make you feel like a lesser version of yourself and unworthy. I don't have thick skin. I don't bounce.
We have some amazing friends we have met at our last church. AMAZING people. People who show love and grace and mercy. People who are working to be better people and to honor God. If only they could have all been like that.
So today I worked out instead. I am fearful of new churches. Fearful of the pattern. Fearful that negative people will unknowingly sabotage my weight loss efforts.
So I'm working on my temple. For today. Until I am strong enough to hold my own against the "crazies".
good for you!
ReplyDeletehopefully you will find the right mixture for your faith AND your social health when you are ready to try new church's again etc...
I think taking care of your body is a great way to worship!
I've always believed that to have faith & love a higher power is not contingent on going to a particular place of worship or to belong to any particular group. Everyone finds what works for them. :)
ReplyDeleteGood for you to do something that succors your spirit and your body instead of subjecting it to negative and harmful (to your spirit & psyche) influences of others who may perhaps not be in such a generous and giving point in their lives. What is that other bible verse: God helps those who help themselves?
Body pump - hmm, sounds like fun!
Thanks for the comments. FYI: God helps those who helps themselves is NOT a bible verse. I don't believe that. I do believe that with faith comes action and we are often times stuck because we refuse to act.
ReplyDeleteDon't give in! You're doing awesome. Keep up the good work! You don't have to be perfect to be headed in the rt direction.
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