So, today I went to a Body Pump Class instead of church. Here are some truths:
I felt better after my workout then I have at church in a long time
People, even though they are working hard, are friendly and cheery - not always so at church
Noone cares what you look like, what work out clothes you are wearing, or how your hair is. It is a welcome relief to wearing my Sunday Best.
Don't get me wrong. We love God and we believe in going to church to worship. We believe in Jesus and the Bible. I am just burned out on actual church lately. And it seems almost every person has the stories of "crazy" people at their own church. People who make you feel like a lesser version of yourself and unworthy. I don't have thick skin. I don't bounce.
We have some amazing friends we have met at our last church. AMAZING people. People who show love and grace and mercy. People who are working to be better people and to honor God. If only they could have all been like that.
So today I worked out instead. I am fearful of new churches. Fearful of the pattern. Fearful that negative people will unknowingly sabotage my weight loss efforts.
So I'm working on my temple. For today. Until I am strong enough to hold my own against the "crazies".