The day started good and ended badly. Did great until I got home from Bible Study and found out the internet wasn't working! EGADS, NOT THAT!!! I always catch up on blogs and tv shows while my girls watch an afternoon video and I had planned that today! My plan was messed up. And when my plans get messed up, I get messed up.
This is one of those behavior modifications I need to make. I need to not grab food to somehow "fix" the problems at hand, because it doesn't. I think I'm mentally okay now. Hubby got on the roof to fix the antenna to our internet (because I didn't want to wait until tomorrow afternoon!)
He's really the greatest.
Because my plans were "messed up" I couldn't bring myself to make dinner, so we ordered pizza and fried chicken. One of my twins will not eat pizza, but the other one loves it. I ate more than was good for me. I'm hoping that this will just give my metabolism a boost instead of making me gain weight.
I read a very good article today about slow weight loss.
http://www.burnthefatblog.com/archives/2009/02/the_2_pounds_per_week_rule_and.php
I have been losing very slowly compared to my times on WW. I must remember that I gained it all back quickly. Losing it this way might make it more sustainable. I took the advice in the article and have made a chart of each week and how much I should weigh if I should lose (-2 per week). Then I can see if I'm on track. So far I am. It looks like this: - It's not actual weights, but what I should be weighing at that week.
August 10 - 290 (starting weight)
August 17 - 288
August 24 - 286
August 31 - 284
September 7 - 282
September 14 -280
September 21 - 278
September 28 - 276
October 5 - 274
If I haven't reached the number by the week it says, then I need to up my efforts. Right now I am a few pounds ahead of schedule, which will allow me not to freak out when I have a bad week, or day, like today.
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Pictures of Me.
Me, today - September 29, 2009 - 273 ish. My face is so pudgy.
This is me and my girls in early April 2009. I think I look thinner than I am here - probably 290
This is me squeezing into a train ride with my girls June of 2008 around 300 lbs
Simple Adjustments
Sometimes it is the simple adjustments that have the biggest impact on making a lifestyle change.
I was thinking about this today as I was making lunch. I never used to cut my sandwich in half, but I started doing it so the tomatoes wouldn't fall out as I tried to eat a whole sandwich. If I cut it in half, there was less of a chance that the stuffings would come out. Now I realize that cutting it in half had a bigger impact. I eat more slowly. Often times I would eat a sandwich and then have to think.."Did I really eat a whole sandwich that fast?" By cutting it I at least make myself slow down. It also slows down the preparation. I find when I'm just throwing stuff on a plate to get it done quickly I'm mentally telling myself I have to rush to eat it. If I take my time to prepare it, then I usually take my time to eat it.
Another small adjustment I've made is drinking water with a straw. I find that I am able to drink much more water this way. I drink it in a cup that I can't see how much is in there at any given time so I don't get depressed about how much I have left to drink. I consistently am drinking over 100 ounces of water a day. After a while you don't pee that much!!
Eating protein. I am trying to always have some protein at every meal. It does fill me up and also I think protects me from the food mood that I get if i overdose on carbs. Sometimes this might be a teaspoon of peanut butter with the fruit I choose, but I think it is helping.
I was thinking about this today as I was making lunch. I never used to cut my sandwich in half, but I started doing it so the tomatoes wouldn't fall out as I tried to eat a whole sandwich. If I cut it in half, there was less of a chance that the stuffings would come out. Now I realize that cutting it in half had a bigger impact. I eat more slowly. Often times I would eat a sandwich and then have to think.."Did I really eat a whole sandwich that fast?" By cutting it I at least make myself slow down. It also slows down the preparation. I find when I'm just throwing stuff on a plate to get it done quickly I'm mentally telling myself I have to rush to eat it. If I take my time to prepare it, then I usually take my time to eat it.
Another small adjustment I've made is drinking water with a straw. I find that I am able to drink much more water this way. I drink it in a cup that I can't see how much is in there at any given time so I don't get depressed about how much I have left to drink. I consistently am drinking over 100 ounces of water a day. After a while you don't pee that much!!
Eating protein. I am trying to always have some protein at every meal. It does fill me up and also I think protects me from the food mood that I get if i overdose on carbs. Sometimes this might be a teaspoon of peanut butter with the fruit I choose, but I think it is helping.
Monday, September 28, 2009
The Honest Scrap Award
Thank you Leslie for the Honest Scrap Award. I am thankful for all of you who read my blog and post comments, it does help me stay motivated. I think I am supposed to list 10 "honest" things about myself.
1. I did not learn to drive a car until I was 25.
2. I have met Yo Yo Ma, Paul Wylie (the figure skater) and Kurt Warner.
3. My movie boyfriend is Colin Firth
4. I have weighed more than 300 lbs.
5. I have eaten a half gallon carton of ice cream in one sitting.
6. I have eaten a can of cold chicken noodle soup. (I know - ew, gross)
7. Somewhere I have a half sibling that was given up for adoption that I do not know.
8. I sing in the church choir
9. I play the glockenspiel in the church orchestra
10. I am 15% grey according to a hairdresser I no longer go to because she told me I was 15% grey.
I hope that was enjoyable to my readers.
On to another honest thing... I am really bitchy to people when they are complimenting me lately (especially my dear husband). Every time he says I look good I get annoyed with him. We were at the gym and I was doing crunches and he said "Looking Good". I told him to shut up. I told him I do NOT look good, I look like a fat woman doing crunches. And that is not a good image. My very good friend yesterday told me I was looking skinnier (she knows about my efforts to lose weight) but BECAUSE she knows I can't find validity in the compliments. I know I should be more accepting of the generous comments, but it's hard. Today especially I FEEL fat. So when someone who knows I am working out nearly every day tells me I look skinnier, it's hard to know whether they are just trying to be encouraging or they really see a difference.
I need to just say "Thanks" and move on.
On a very happy note I jogged 1/3 of a mile today. Granted I did not do it all at one time. Our track at the fitness center takes 9 laps to make a mile. I did 1 lap with hubby, then did the elliptical, did some weights, did another lap, did some crunches, did another lap. But still. I can't remember the last time I jogged even one lap!! It was a victory moment for me.
Yay.
Food Mood
I have never realized the major impact that food (and caffeine) have on my emotional stability. I have long suffered from depression and some anxiety. Now a lot of the depression has been brought on by life circumstances, but sometimes it has been a little crazy. I would cry for an hour because I lost something. I would flip out if my husband laid something down on a space I had just cleaned or organized. I think these irrational things came from a food mood.
Yesterday I did not eat horribly, but certainly a more free day than I usually do. I had cinnamon swirl bread for breakfast, Diet Coke - for lunch a Salmon Burger on Ciabatta with mashed potatoes at Lonestar, more cinnamon bread for a snack and a Hershey Almond King Size Bar for dinner with another Diet Coke. This is not a terrible calorie day, but also not a terribly nutritious day. I did not drink as much water as usual either.
I had trouble falling asleep last night and then slept terribly. I woke up and couldn't bear to get out of bed. It took me over 30 minutes to really rouse myself. I sent my girls to go play for a whle whilst I tried to get up. Then after breakfast I was writing a big stack of thank you cards that I kept putting off while the girls played. When we were finish I went up to get them to go to the Parent/Tot Play Center in town and they had destroyed their bedroom that I had spent time yesterday cleaning. (They are generally not allowed too many toys in their room because we have a HUGE toyroom right next to their bedroom). I flipped. I mean I yelled, then had to go lay down and started crying my eyes out. For 15 minutes. All because my children did something that all children do - make a mess. Something that didn't take that long to clean up.
It hit me after I calmed down that I have not had an episode like this in a few months. Since I've started eating healthy and exercising and limiting diet coke. An "Aha" moment went on in my head. My depression in part (or at least the outward actions of it) may have been linked to my food and caffeine consumption. Food does affect the chemicals in your brain. I'll keep track of these emotional outbursts in the future to see if they are corresponding to food intake. But it seems that I might have figured out a fundamental problem in my response system. I must keep the Food Mood in check by continuing to eat healthy.
Yesterday I did not eat horribly, but certainly a more free day than I usually do. I had cinnamon swirl bread for breakfast, Diet Coke - for lunch a Salmon Burger on Ciabatta with mashed potatoes at Lonestar, more cinnamon bread for a snack and a Hershey Almond King Size Bar for dinner with another Diet Coke. This is not a terrible calorie day, but also not a terribly nutritious day. I did not drink as much water as usual either.
I had trouble falling asleep last night and then slept terribly. I woke up and couldn't bear to get out of bed. It took me over 30 minutes to really rouse myself. I sent my girls to go play for a whle whilst I tried to get up. Then after breakfast I was writing a big stack of thank you cards that I kept putting off while the girls played. When we were finish I went up to get them to go to the Parent/Tot Play Center in town and they had destroyed their bedroom that I had spent time yesterday cleaning. (They are generally not allowed too many toys in their room because we have a HUGE toyroom right next to their bedroom). I flipped. I mean I yelled, then had to go lay down and started crying my eyes out. For 15 minutes. All because my children did something that all children do - make a mess. Something that didn't take that long to clean up.
It hit me after I calmed down that I have not had an episode like this in a few months. Since I've started eating healthy and exercising and limiting diet coke. An "Aha" moment went on in my head. My depression in part (or at least the outward actions of it) may have been linked to my food and caffeine consumption. Food does affect the chemicals in your brain. I'll keep track of these emotional outbursts in the future to see if they are corresponding to food intake. But it seems that I might have figured out a fundamental problem in my response system. I must keep the Food Mood in check by continuing to eat healthy.
Saturday, September 26, 2009
How do I diet, let me count the ways...
So I was browsing the library shelves today looking for something interesting to read regarding weight loss. What I found was a plethora of books which would make anyone's head spin. Here's just a sampling of what we had at our local library (not including what you can get in the library network)
The Zone Diet
The Atkins Diet
The Okinawa Diet
The G-Diet (gluten free)
The South Beach Diet
The Flexitarian Diet (a vegetarian type diet)
The Flat Belly Diet
The Tea Diet
The PH Balance Diet
The Mediterranean Diet
The Geno-Type Diet
The Cardio Free Diet
The 3 Hour Diet
The Abs Diet
The Inside Out Diet
The Rice Diet
The Reverse Diet
The New York Diet
The Hamptons Diet
The Hallelujah Diet
The Sonoma Diet
The Fat Smash Diet
The No Flour No Sugar Diet
The Raw Food Detox Diet
The No-Fad Diet
The Starch Blocker Diet
The No-Grain Diet
The Blood Type Diet
The Real Age Diet
The Bone Density Diet
The Ketogenic Diet
The Weigh Down Diet
The Philosophers Diet
The Paleolithic Plan for Diet
The Metabolic Diet
There were more..these were just the easiest titles most written after the year 2000.
We all know there are more: The juice diet, The detox diet, Weight Watchers, Jenny Craig, LA Weight Loss, Volumetrics Diet, The leek diet. The beet diet....these are just the ones coming off the top of my head. Is it no wonder people don't know how to lose weight??? There is so much different information how would anyone know which is right and what achieves results?
Isn't it crazy? I throw in the towel with all of this and just go back to the basics.
Eat less, Eat better
Move more, move faster.
The Zone Diet
The Atkins Diet
The Okinawa Diet
The G-Diet (gluten free)
The South Beach Diet
The Flexitarian Diet (a vegetarian type diet)
The Flat Belly Diet
The Tea Diet
The PH Balance Diet
The Mediterranean Diet
The Geno-Type Diet
The Cardio Free Diet
The 3 Hour Diet
The Abs Diet
The Inside Out Diet
The Rice Diet
The Reverse Diet
The New York Diet
The Hamptons Diet
The Hallelujah Diet
The Sonoma Diet
The Fat Smash Diet
The No Flour No Sugar Diet
The Raw Food Detox Diet
The No-Fad Diet
The Starch Blocker Diet
The No-Grain Diet
The Blood Type Diet
The Real Age Diet
The Bone Density Diet
The Ketogenic Diet
The Weigh Down Diet
The Philosophers Diet
The Paleolithic Plan for Diet
The Metabolic Diet
There were more..these were just the easiest titles most written after the year 2000.
We all know there are more: The juice diet, The detox diet, Weight Watchers, Jenny Craig, LA Weight Loss, Volumetrics Diet, The leek diet. The beet diet....these are just the ones coming off the top of my head. Is it no wonder people don't know how to lose weight??? There is so much different information how would anyone know which is right and what achieves results?
Isn't it crazy? I throw in the towel with all of this and just go back to the basics.
Eat less, Eat better
Move more, move faster.
Friday, September 25, 2009
My shoes weigh 1.6lbs!
Who would have ever thought that shoes could weigh so much! I got on the scale today with shoes and the number was 275. I thought that was a little high so I took my shoes off.. 273.4. Now I thought that was much better! Just to make sure I weighed my shoes at home by themselves. How crazy is that? I will never weigh with my shoes on again, because that 1.6 lbs is the difference between rejoicing in my achievement and wallowing in sadness that my efforts are not paying off. It's the little things that make a HUGE difference, isn't it? And Little by little these small losses will add up to one major one. I can't wait.
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