Feeling the Pressure

So the other day I blogged about how great it was to get compliments. I think I take a bit of that back. Today I felt the overwhelming pressure that having everyone notice my weight loss brings. Scary feelings. Those feelings of "Why does everyone have to notice me!!". If I fail now then people will notice. (not that I intend to). But it is a scarier feeling then any I have had on this journey.

Of course this comes from another person commenting on my weight loss today. A mom from the ballet studio. I don't know what about it today had me in tears during my spinning class. With my pants being so loose and people telling me how great I look, I just got overwrought with emotion. This is the most successful I've ever been with weight loss in the last 10 years. It's exhilarating and frightening all in one.

I'm good though and plan on staying good. :)

Gangsta!

My pants, my underwear...it's all falling down!!! It's so annoying!!! I think I'm going to have to join a gang where they wear their pants riding low.... Yo yo yo!!

There CAN be too much of a good thing.

There's a very nice woman at the fitness center that I run into very often. She is ALWAYS there taking all types of classes. The problem is this woman is skin and bones and when I say bones I mean, you can pretty much see her bones trying to protrude out of her skin. I don't think she has any fat at all on her body and this makes her look, in my opinion, very sickly. I think she works out 3 plus hours a day. I want to be thin, but she is a huge reminder that there is TOO thin.

Today I did BodyFlow this morning. The instructor asked me my name the other day, which I loved because it just makes me feel like a bigger part of the whole fitness world. She's amazing. She is 50 and has an awesomely fit body. And she's a hoot!

Feeling groovy on this cloudy Monday! Hope you are too!

Feeling Feminine

I've noticed lately that with this round of weight loss I've begun to feel more feminine. My wardrobe most days was a tshirt with whatever bottoms - jeans or sweatpants. Now I don't usually go out of the house in a tshirt. I've been putting on makeup more. Accessorizing.

I've also started wearing pretty nighties to bed. One reason is that I get super duper hot at night, even when it's only 70 degrees in our room. The other is that I just feel more like a lady then in cotton stretchy pants and tops. I had a robe that I got for our wedding that's beautifully sheer with satiny trim. I put it on last night and just felt like the most beautiful woman. I don't think I've worn it in seven years.

An annoying plus. I bought a pair of shorts at Walmart for $1 a few months back. Size 24. They are Way too big!! I'm wearing them anyway because I'm putzing around the house today. Then they might just go into the thrift store pile because I wouldn't be comfortable wearing these out as cute as they are.

Happy Sunday and Father's Day. I have a great husband who is also a Fantastic Dad. And an even greater Father God. Have a great one.

Loving compliments

I've started to get a ton of compliments on weight loss...this is very motivating. I'm excited. People at our old church. Friends..acquaintances...(like the kids bus driver) are noticing a change. Even at Body Pump the other day I was doing a side plank and one of the other girls with whom I often take classes with complimented me on it. It's such an awesome feeling.

I have a long way to go though...but the first time I lost this weight, noone really noticed and it depressed me because how the heck can I lose 40 lbs and noone noticed!

I only have 6 hours to go for my exercise goal this quarter. I have 12 days to do it. Piece of cake. I'll be done by next week. SO INCREDIBLY PROUD OF MYSELF for setting this tough goal.

Happy Saturday!

Sweat Gets in Your Eyes...

So today I took to the trails to do my C25K. I was getting a little bored running the track at the fitness center. Of course it was sunny and almost 78 degrees by the time I finished running. Was it better? Yes and no. The time did seem to go by a little bit faster, but the sun made it hot and made my fast more sweaty which got into my eyes which made them burn....and I got really thirsty with 10 minutes to go. But I finished it at any rate. I think I'd like to find trails that are specific mileages. Todays trail was around a park...a big circle but small enough that I still had to run around it a few times. I think it would help if I just had one path with no repeat circles.

Yesterday the family and I went geocaching for the first time ever. What fun!! The mosquitoes were horrible, but it was fun using the GPS compass on our iphone to find a little treasure. I think we are going to do more of this in the future!!

Unfortunately my greasy calzone did not do anything for my bowels. Today's remedy - a pint of blueberries (which though I love, usually don't make my stomach all too happy)and milk - but still nothing. This is frustrating. Oh well.

I'm trying to decide whether to sign up for a 5k next week. I have the one planned for October, but I've been feeling a little less motivated in my C25K and with the race so far away I thought maybe I'd throw one in. Even if I walk half of it, it would at least give me the experience...

Happy Friday - off to get some California rolls for lunch!

Food Hangover

Last night I intentionally ate something with a lot of calories and fat. Why intentionally? Because (and this may be TMI) I have been having difficulty with #2. Not completely constipated but it has been very difficult to pass.

The basic questions that come to most people's mind in this situation:

Are you hydrated enough? - Yep - almost a gallon a day!
Are you eating enough fiber? - Yep - lots of fruit and veggies every day!

I think the one thing I have not been having a lot of is fat. Honestly almost everything I eat is nearly fat free (because it is fruit and veggies). So last night I ate a sausage and cheese calzone and some pie in the hopes that it might loosen me up a little.

So far - NOPE! GRRR. And it's left me with what I consider a Food Hangover. Honestly it is probably dehydration from all the salt that is in those foods, but I just feel sickly.

I guess I'll just have to wait for it to pass..literally. (hope that made you chuckle).

I'm resting today because my arms are so SORE from Pilates yesterday. The good sore, muscle working sore. That makes me happy. I already signed up for next Wednesday.